I wish I would have remembered
That love was always in me
A light that couldn’t be extinguished
No matter what happened
I wish I would have felt
Her breathing me every moment
And felt Her aliveness
Bathing me in Love
I wish I wasn’t taught
That love was in the deeds I did
That it was something
I could give to others by doing
I wish that I never learned
To try to get love from another
By being pleasing or beautiful
It doesn’t work like that
I wish I would have understood
That I can’t “do” love…ever
That love is who I am
And it is unwavering
So all the man-made guilt
For not doing the lunches
Or the extra acts of kindness
Mean nothing at all
When we wake to Her breath in us
Expectations of self and others end
And life continues
Without the burden of proving love
My hands petting the cat
Playing with the dog
Feeding the hummingbirds
Are moved by Her
She gave us Her love
With our first breath
And it stays with us
Until our last
bjbeyers 10/2024
barb j beyers 